Guilt-ridden
Today has been a day filled with guilty moments. First, I woke up feeling guilty about not having studied enough for my Macro exam. When I went in to see my advisor about summer proposals, I felt guilty for not taking more steps to form solid summer plans earlier. After reading my email, I felt guilty for not donating to MIT. So, after donating what amounts to little more than pocket change to this institution which had me trapped in concrete for 4 years, I started feeling guilty for not donating to my high school… which should somehow be just as deserving and in greater need, or so I thought.
Then, when I read my friend’s posts about her progress with chemotherapy, I felt guilty for studying random abstract (read “useless”) economic models when there were so many people in the world suffering from illness. Why, I asked myself, did I switch from Biology, a field that had such potential to improve human health and ease suffering, to Finance, which on a practical level seems to serve only to make rich people richer?
Ah. I smile as my existentialist crisis looms ahead…
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Well now, you could always be like that one economist who won the Nobel Peace Prize. Obv not Finance, per se, but hey! You’ll find your way to use your money massing powers for good!
Comment by Elaine — 3/15/2007 @ 1:37 pm EDT
Agreed. Look up “Muhammad Yunus”. Not all economists use their knowledge for material gain. I’ve never known you to do anything but good things for those around you. I’d say you’r probably the last person that needs to feel guilty. Buck up!
Comment by Kenny — 3/29/2007 @ 9:27 pm EDT
haha i get this feeling all the time but i figure there’s 2 ways to contribute
1. making humanitarian stuff your job
or
2. make alot of money and then donate to ppl who make humanitarian aid their job
Plus development econ is pretty cool…and microfinance has the world finance in it…
Comment by kathleen — 4/16/2007 @ 9:46 pm EDT
I’m playing catch-up on your blog. And I am here to tell you not to feel guilty. Your silly message of *meow* and hello mean so much to me. So, don’t feel guilty.
Comment by Jessica — 4/29/2007 @ 9:31 am EDT